Life Is So Miserable

Why does my life have to be so miserable? All I want is someone to care about me.. Why is it so hard? My ex wanted to be with me back now.. And I've already got a new bf.. What should I do? I've told my ex that I wont be back with him but still he wanna wait for me.. I really don't know what to do.. I cried in the night whenever I'm on the bed.. I feel so alone.. I just wanted someone that will care about me more.. All I got now is my 2 best friends Suki & Tiffy =) Love u guys so much mwah~ xD